By: Jessica Sorensen
Published: September 3, 2013 by Forever
Source: ARC from Netgalley given by publisher for review (Thanks!)
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Nova Reed used to have dreams-of becoming a famous drummer, of marrying her true love. But all of that was taken away in an instant. Now she's getting by as best she can, though sometimes that means doing things the old Nova would never do. Things that are slowly eating away at her spirit. Every day blends into the next . . . until she meets Quinton Carter. His intense, honey brown eyes instantly draw her in, and he looks just about as broken as she feels inside.MY REVIEW:
Quinton once got a second chance at life-but he doesn't want it. The tattoos on his chest are a constant reminder of what he's done, what he's lost. He's sworn to never allow happiness into his life . . . but then beautiful, sweet Nova makes him smile. He knows he's too damaged to get close to her, yet she's the only one who can make him feel alive again. Quinton will have to decide: does he deserve to start over? Or should he pay for his past forever?
In all of the books I have read of Jessica Sorensen's she has main characters that suffer from serious problems and heartache. The issues that she writes about are heavy, like addiction, depression, suicide, etc... This story is no different; it's very heavy, very emotional, with characters who are very broken. Talk about a sad and depressing story!
Nova has seen death twice in her life, to two very important people she loved greatly. The tragedy of losing anyone close to you abruptly is enough grief to cripple most people but to see someone you love commit suicide has got to be one of the hardest things to overcome. She has emotional scars that are not healing because she won't allow herself to heal or to move on, so to find a release she turns to drugs and alcohol for that brief moment of haze and calm it brings.
Quinton had his whole life planned out. His career after college, his future wife, and it was all tragically taken from him. He blames himself and let's that guilt and blame consume him and drag him into a darker place than he ever imagined.
Together Nova and Quinton find a small piece of solace but it's short lived when the need to get high in order to escape reality outweighs anything else. Neither is strong enough to pull the other out of their darkness and so they drift downward together.
This is the type of story where you feel a major tragedy is coming because of the decisions of the characters. The question is whether or not life means anything to either of them, enough to help them escape their addictions so they can move forward healing the scars they both wear. Can they pull each other out of this pit or will they just pull each other down further?
Sorensen's writing is real. The issues she deals with, though very dark in nature, are what plague a lot of young people who try to escape their life through the means of various addictions. I love how she writes about characters who not only deal with such addictions, but also the ones who overcome.
"You're like my favorite song, Nova. The one that I never want to forget. That I want to play over and over."
...sometimes stuff happens and we find ourselves lost, and suddenly we're standing in a place we don't recognize and can't remember walking - or falling - there, and we're unsure how to get back or if we even want to.
Quit or move forward. Heal or break. Fight or die. I'm still figuring that out.
I don't even know what I want. My head starts to race as I realize the painful truth of the revelation. I am lost. Broken. Searching for something that doesn't exist.
"...if I've learned anything, good-byes are important, even if they're scary and awkward. Always, always, say good-bye."
Final Rating - 4 stars
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